Dream Control

""Not sure if others fall back to their previous dreams from waking but I usually find myself recalling those dreams...funny I give no thought to them all day!""

I've never edited a Blog post so not sure if it changes the date but we will see. I actually blogged this post 24hrs ago, almost to the minute- will make this short & sweet because I think the post is confusing- surprising, right? LOL

When I get comfortable & know I am close to falling asleep, my mind automatically 'reverts' to the dream-state info-processing I was last at- meaning, whatever I was dreaming about when I awoke that prior morning (or nap-time)...its SO automatic that I sometimes have to chuckle as I sometimes spend much time attempting to recall a dream or write about it & even when I am telling Johnny about it when I first wake up- the longer I am awake, the more of the dream I 'loose'...but by golly, as I am falling asleep again, there it IS- it can really tick me off HAHA

I always wondered if others were able to dictate what they dreamed about- and I have tested myself by keeping a journal when I was younger- to 'command' what I would dream about & fall asleep thinking about it specifically & wake up chock-full of wondrous dreams of adventure much like the Alice in Wonderland & The Looking Glass books dictate. If you have never read 'Ms. Osbourne the Mop', I suggest it...my dreams were very much like this & many times when fantasy related, still are. A fun read with an 8yr old...or immature 12yr old ;) So yeah, I can control most aspects of my dreams.

When I was younger I would crawl to the top of my canopy bed & lay sideways along the headboard, afraid that what was under the bed could reach around to grab me- then I would pretend I was hiding on a boat set to sea & when I woke up I would be 'about 25' lol Seemed to 'be' the age when I was about 11 to 'want to be'...

So, can YOU control YOUR dreams to ANY extent? I will probably ask this again down the road when I have more followers... As I told Johnny today, I am sure others can do it- I have not met anyone though and MAYBE it's just something I taught myself to do at a young age...

It's a pretty awesome thing...now, if I can just get some SLEEP, enough of all this REM ;)

Dreaming...

Well I haven't blogged anything and keep waiting for the time and something profound but I never find time and I never seem to KNOW when it's profound 'enough' to share and impact...so I have decided I need to just start somewhere HAHA

I had this dream this morning...between 4-9am I was going through purses and satchels' that were available to trade. I can remember that it was a Mary Kay event or get-together with Mary Kay Sisters in general although I do not remember anyone in particular. I had two different piles to go through- some were used and another area where new ones were...new ones being that they were not used, but had been bought and not worked out. I am FOREVER searching for 'the perfect' purse to lug my personal items, just the right samples, a book, recruitment info & of course Splenda, BeanO, glasses to see near & far...sunglasses...geesh... Did I mention THE perfect purse??

Well one of the purses had thick thread in it with a bunch of what seemed to be furry ribbon/REALLY thick thread. I have a "How to" manual as I have wanted to teach myself to do embroidery work. My grandmother does it and as other women in the family have picked up knitting & crocheting, painting and other crafty hands-on ways like grams I have always been drawn to the pillowcases & other items she has done throughout the years for all of us...

I forgot about my dream until about an hour ago...at which time I thought- Hey...I need to just BLOG about that! So here I am. I don't know why so maybe we can figure it out together down the road :) I have been praying for some peaceful time where the phone isn't asking to look at Facebook and I FEEL at peace SITTING accomplishing something while enjoying watching my husband mow the back field or watch golf that I am not really interested in but just want to sit with him & tuck my feet up under his leg haha, but I normally find myself unable to concentrate on reading & back in front of the computer...which just ABSORBS me and my time.

When I go into the store next, even if it IS the evil Walmart, I am going to pick up something short & simple to start with...and will see where it goes. Better pick up some old lady glasses too...soon I will be like the man in my life & have a pair here & there ;)

No I do not know what the purses were about...once I found the embroidery thread I was lost in that but I seemed to spend a LOT of time looking through them.

Maybe it's that I spend so much time doing ONE thing and do not seem to come up with an 'end'...like running in place- even though I truly AM looking for a TRUE handbag- it eludes me because I REALLY do not put the TIME it takes into actually LOCATING & FINDING the bag... Nor do I seem to put what is needed into doing anything...I flitter here & there never landing. Hmmm...am I going somewhere with this? I have this anxiety of security and it keeps me from allowing myself to SETTLE. Justified or not... I have been like this, with reason, my whole life it seems and I want to LAND and RELAX... Maybe I need to let some things go to do that- and maybe I don't need a purse to fill and all I need is to start weaving/creating/embroidering because to DO that, I must STOP and concentrate and RELAX...

I have no hobbies, no personal interests...the baby belongs to my son & Jessica and now that the era, A NEW SEASON has begun...it is time to slide into it joyfully...so- here I go!!

Thanks for listening- feel free to comment!